MICHELLE HANDELMAN
FILMMAKER, VISUAL ARTIST, WRITER, PROFESSOR
Hustlers & Empires
a multiscreen installation and performance, 2018
originally commissioned by the San Francisco Museum of Modern Art, and Frank Smigiel, former Associate Curator, Performance & Film, at SFMOMA
LOVER HATER CUNTY INTELLECTUAL
“My identity is a revolving door of possibilities, If you ask me what I want I’ll tell you… I want everything…this whole rotten world...because queerness is a borderless state.” Viva Ruiz in Hustlers & Empires
Irma Vep, The Last Breath, 2013/2015, multiscreen installation starring Zackary Drucker and Flawless Sabrina, 33 minutes.
Dorian, A Cinematic Perfume, 2009/2011, multiscreen installation starring Quin Charity, K8 Hardy, Armen Ra, and Sequinette, 63 minutes
BloodSisters: Leather, Dykes and Sadomasocism, 1995, 69 minutes
Artist and Filmmaker Michelle Handelman in conversation with Hunter O'Hanian, Executive Director, Stonewall National Museum & Archives, Talk Dec 03, 2020.
Monologues from Hustlers & Empires
VIVA RUIZ / MARGUERITE DURAS I have no regrets
I have no regrets
But then again, I can’t remember anything
When you’re taught from an early age that your body is a commodity
That your family is the enemy
And that your sole means of survival is kill or be killed
You find ways to erase it all
At a young age I already had a face that foretold the one I would acquire in middle age
Drink accomplished what God did not
That was how everything started for me - with that flagrant, exhausted face, those rings around the eyes
Vodka finished what time left undone
That day I slept with my brother I was looking at myself in the mirror I called him into the bedroom. We kissed.
And then I took off all my clothes
He did what I told him. I guided him in
And when he cried out I covered his mouth with my own
so that my mother wouldn’t hear
her son’s cry of release.
All I wanted was neglect
And empty sex
You didn’t have to go and love me too
All I do now is smoke. I have no more desire. no more love.
It’s wonderful, incredible
As if I died a thousand years ago
Sure I have feelings. You can see them right here on my body.
Other people call them scars
People like me don’t deserve happy endings
But I have no regrets